硬要做自己不想做的東西，
是絕對不能令我把事情做好，
而且一點成就感都沒有。

真是一片愁雲,一片慘霧.

Whatever happened happened.
If you happen to pick up your lost confidence,
don't forget to sharpen your confidence with time.

Being serious... everyone could have said it easily that they wanted to do things better next time.

Since Apr 2001, the thought process started. I began to plan and dream about the future.

Since Sep 2001, I began to have the first contact thousands of miles apart.

Until Sep 2004, even with all the disappointments, my belief still lives and I still believed the day would come eventually.

Oct 26 2004, try-out was given and it lasted for 2 days.

Since Oct 28 2004, I knew the hope was still there with lots of possibilities, but I just had to take the steps slowly and clear the path.

Until 2006, my planned future seemed to be aligned finally. With physical obstacles, we could only let it be challenged with time.

Since 2007, plan was being actualized and results were yet to be seen. Positive attitude towards the results.

Feb 17 2009, we could finally draw the conclusion. The thought process became an actual process. It's the time of my life.

It's an eight years of work in progress. It "wows" people, but I think it's worth the price that I paid up.

I've never been so serious about anything. But this time I really see the need to prepare for my life within these 2 years. This is for my own family, and myself.

After all these years, I finally made it to this step that I've been longing for. I couldn't imagine how rough the road ahead is until I get to here. I know this future life doesn't come with an easy path. But I can guarantee to you that I will tough it up and walk together towards the light, the end of the tunnel.  It's happening. I am not alone.

找答案? 我找到了。我已經聼到一個我想要的答案。

It has been quite a journey for me in the past year.

Changes in family, career and life style, with all the ups and downs, nobody could tell what exactly the changes will lead you to. But it implies... new directions are needed.

It's your path, so make your choices.

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Today is Dec 8th, we always remember u, our dearest grandma.
I want to tell u that I've managed to walk away from 10 months of sorrows and depression.
Now I feel a lot happier, with u and all our memories kept deep in my heart.


Your Beloved Grandson, Bun.